After being involved in the most wonderful relationship of friendship for three years, actually a reconnection of a childhood friendship, it is now over. When a man and woman form a strong bond of friendship it makes people uncomfortable. My best friend made a choice between me and his girlfriend, based on an ultimatum she gave him. Do I blame him for this? No. If he feels she is where his future happiness lies then I am cheering on the sidelines. The problem I have now is with the anguish. He had pulled away, and our friendship had all but turned into a polite and loveless acquaintance which I could not bear. I was so devastated that I found myself missing him more AFTER we talked, than on the days we didn't. So I pulled off the bandaid. I knew for both of us I had to do it. But now my wound just bleeds and bleeds. I am functioning well in my life and have lots of blessings to be grateful for (and I am), but I have this broken heart which nags at me throughout the day -- and even in my dreams at night. I keep telling myself it will get easier. And I also think we will likely reconnect again in the future. It just hurts. I'm holding my head high though and trying to celebrate how blessed I was to have that special relationship for three years, instead of grieving the loss of it.